Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Tuesday Afternoon Update
Its been a tough day today.
We've just met with the medical team for a few hours and it's not the happiest news. I'll apologize ahead of time, but I don't feel right sugarcoating things. I think its more appropriate to give everyone a sense of what's going through our heads right now, how we're handling the news. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm not sure what to do anymore.
The good: Courtney is not a vegetable or a lost cause by any means (our hope and resolve are still strong).
The bad: Dr. Gorman labeled her brain damage as "severe," its not "mild" or "moderate." They've checked on her since she's been off of the majority of the meds and the sedatives are wearing off. She's got pupil movement and can breath, which means the base part of the brain where our most basic functions are is still in tact. But she's not as responsive as the doctor's would have liked and they aren't sure the extent of the damage.
There is a chance for recovery. The percentages play against us, Dr. Young has referenced thousands of cases similar to Court's which he has worked on and no one has come through something like this. What plays to our advantage is that nationally those few who have recovered from such trauma are Courtney's demographic - young and healthy.
The gameplan has subsequently changed, we are looking at a time table that's at least a month long to see if she can slowly restore her brain functions. The doctors and nurses are making preparations for Courtney to sustain herself in a hospital bed for a longer term, they're trying to protect her from disease, bed sores and muscle atrophy. We'll see her through the whole way.
Pretty distressing news and we've felt a lot pain after hearing the diagnosis. We need hope and prayers now more than ever. I love receiving everyones support and it means the world to us and to Courtney, of the things that I am able to put into words I'm not sure how to describe how overwhelming your support has been. This is a hard road, but we know we're going to get there together, its only a matter of time. Love and patience are the keys, and while I wish we could fast forward through all this and have her home again, in the meantime we'll need to find our own ways to cope.
I hate delivering this news, especially when we were looking for signs of recover. I've debated whether to write anymore. It helps to take things off my mind and we check for your messages all the time. I'm not sure, I'm going to take a short break and try to sort things out. Courtney's parents, Marty, Marti and Martha are all here with her.
We Love you Courtney and we can't wait to have you back safe and sound.