I still have to actively think about the volume of my voice, remembering to breathe deeply while speaking, and take into consideration, how to move my lips and mouth, to form each word. It's a lot to remember, and on top of that, I have to retain what I'd planned to say, and try to remain organized. Enough to convince my group, and class why beauty pageants are a positive influence within society. Frankly, I could not care less about pageants, I remember appreciating 'miss Congeniality' for its raw humor, and demonstrating that not all women, are poised, and move fluidly, with coordination. 'Little Miss Sunshine' was another fantastic pageantry comedy, that made fun of the trivial absurdities, and unique personality traits, so well.
Realistically, if pageants make some people happy, then those people should appreciate them. I had to tell my group why I appreciate beauty pageants, and name positive aspects of them. Apparantly there's a fair amount of scholarship money in them, for winners. I also decided I should look the part, so I put on some make up, and fussed over my appearance, before I went to class. Call me crazy, but it seems if I have to care about beauty pageants, then I should appear to care about my own appearance. I hope that I do, anyways, but makeup has never been part of who I am, or want go be, at least on a daily basis. I felt like a kid, playing dress up, but it put me in the right frame of mind, and it didn't hurt that some kid literally tripped himself, running around me, to open the door for me. People are generally very kind, with holding the door for me, but the enthusiasm, and lack of coordination, combined, struck me as hilarious, in that moment. He did make it, but I was a bit dumbfounded, watching it take place.
The many faces of me
still feel like I little kid playing dress up. This lifestyle is so bizarre, although,I'm clearly not the only person out there with image confusion issues. Yesterday, I was walking to the corner market, and walked around a person wearing a banana costume. As I was told, dress for success. Not sure what dressing like a piece of fruit gets you, maybe some funny comments, and possibly a free banana? Hard to say with that one.