Support For Courtney

Today I'm somewhat ashamed of myself for attempting to use my 'disability' as a leverage to get what I wanted. I had a meeting with my case manager, Deb, who was gracious enough to drop me off at the indoor track at UVMs field house. Upon walking in, I realized my ID was missing from my pocket. I headed over to the desk, to ask someone to buzz me in. My request was answered with a 10 + minute lecture, from a girl, on a little powe trip. She informed me, I needed to go to the cat card office (on the other side of campus to have them change my access privileges. In the middle of this, another student requested, a buzz in, and she said, oh, they're unlocked right now, you can just walk on in. And then, turns back to me and proceeds lecturing me. I was so angry, by that time, I was at a loss for how to proceed. It took all of my self restraint to refrain from walking away from her unenjoyable lecture and through the unlocked gates, but I put up with her, let her go on her little tirade, eventually she was gracious enough to let me in, "just this one time.". Once I was away from her, it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and I ran for an hour and a half. Granted I call it running because I'm doing everything within my brains power to lift my feet in a running stride. However, my brain is still learning how to safely keep me upright, while moving forward. I still move like a gangly, awkward 8 yr old, which I was, once upon a time. I've always been slower to pick up motions, or any type of coordinated movement. As frustrating as it is, I have to just tell myself to be thankful I can relearn these things, period. Many others, go through injuries where they're not able to regain these skill. I have to keep reminding myself, that even though I don't feel lucky right now, I am, because I can relearn these things. It dent always work, reasoning with myself, but it's a good stategy when it does.

Hillary picked me and we treated ourselves to breakfast for lunch at Sneakers, whereI costumed a trough of fruit and yogurt with granola. I've always wanted to try that dish, but can rarely stay away from the kahlua dipped French toast... AMAZING. After lunch, I wanted to stop in the gear exchange downtown, to inquire about snowshoe rentals, where I ended up purchasing a pair, because it want vey economical to rent them for $10 a day, when I can't hop in the car to return them.. It felt a bit impulsive to just buy some, but winter will be over before I think of it again. I'm hoping it will be less awkward then last years adventures in cross country skiing. We shall see...

Okay, sorry, I can't be bothered to edit this right now, as I need some dinner, so deal with it, annoying as it is.

Okay, I'm off to go rustle up some dinner, and can't actually be bother to edit this. My apologies for whatever mistakes I've made.